Thursday, June 14, 2007

naglalakad sa alapaap

at doon naghintay ako
sa sulok ng aking puso
nagagalak kang makita
sulyap ng mga mata

nangangatog at kinakabahan
hindi alam ang gagawin
nawawala sa isip
epekto ng pag-ibig

pinagpapawisan sa lamig
mga palad kong sabik
mahagkan mga kamay mo
ng kahit man lang saglit

at doon sa dulo ng pasilio
nagliwanag ang mundo
tila anghel sa lupa
lahat ng tao'y nabura

at ikaw lamang ang nakita
nag-iisa
nagniningning
o aking tanging bituin

charli angel

your smile
makes my heart beat faster
pounds stronger more
everytime you're near

like seeing an angel
face to face
what a lovely feeling
an emotional bliss

then
you were just a dream
of seeing someone
romantic it seems

i'm infatuated
can't hide it all
oh charli angel
for you i fall

Saturday, May 26, 2007

a wonderful you

the way you smile
across the room i sigh
i saw those eyes
they tantalized

melts my heart
like buttercup
sugar sweet
in mellow lies

when by your side
euphoric rise
i'm in state of high
and i just fly

way high above
beyond the clouds
beyond the limits
of this so called love

good mornings
are never the same
romanticize
i claim your name

you wake me up
my sleeping life
to a wonderful you
in love i might

Sunday, April 22, 2007

my country my love my promise

my song for you will always be
as happy as the birds are free
you are my hope my everything
and air i gasp a life you bring

alone you stand amidst expiry
of a worldly ill favor against you
strong and immortal
of willful power

you stood still
tall and beautiful
tainted as they brand
but pure as white

in time i will exhale
the answer of liberation
like little jose once imagined
of a nation free

a magical act

my beautiful you
who once sprung from my avid imagination
now lost in translation
of a mimicking escape art

was it gone
or stuck in still and frozen in time
and when the act is done
all else returned and well

amusing how these surviving explicit
of an explication
has deceived the eyes
and convinced the mind

does love has to do with
or the act itself is love
left blank to pondering
it was beautiful

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

textmates

sometimes i feel like
stuck
'coz i got no one
to talk to

sometimes i feel
so busy
'coz i got nobody
to share with

sometimes i feel
so lonely
'coz there's nobody
to back me up

good thing there's my mobile
and you
on the other side
of the line

a sweet surprise

i never thought
i could ever write
of happiness
and sweet surprise

until you came
into my life
and put lil' spark
unto my eyes

you wiped away
those frozen tears
that have been there
for all these years

i cant believe
i'm liking you
its a miracle
that's coming true

'coz i never thought
i could ever love
more than that love
that i once have

and yeah its cool
to have found you
baby, this i promise
i wont let go

passing

over my window
i saw the after life
it was a bit cloudy at first
but it soon cleared out

bluish pale tone
covering the celestial sphere
and the bright sun
casting shadows on me

after that tangerine teardrops
falling wild
over the greeneries
and strawberry fields

i soon realized
that passing
could be merry
and quite worthwhile

namiss kita bigla

sa bawat pagpikit ng aking mga mata
sanlibong lumbay ang nadarama
agos ng sapa ang tulo ng luha
paglinsan mo'y di ko nakaya

parang kahapon lamang
kamay mo'y aking hawak
haplos nito'y sariwa pa
sa aking mga palad

ang puso ko'y nananabik
sa higpit ng mga yapak
ng dati nating pagibig
na wari'y walang kupas

wala akong nagawa
di ka napigil
maghihintay na lamang
ganun na nga, marahil

keep loving

why do i keep loving
while i know it hurts so bad
maybe i'm used to it now
learned some lessons from the past

when you fall
stand right up
give her a kiss
and a big hug

show her love
you never showed
hold her arms
not too tight

let her fly
if she desires
letting go
is quite worthwhile

'coz if you love someone
set her free
when she comes back
now you can say - she is for me

thin line

i'm still curious about that thin line we cross
when we fall in love
it's like an infinite plane of laser lights
that strip away all the limitations you have

and you become ready to submit into
a whirlwind of a never ending romance
eventually, you become blind, deaf,
stubborn and hard headed

i have many questions
unanswered
for no one
will answer them for me

or point me
to a direction
until my curiosity consumed me
one day a very long time ago

fantasies are never untrue

met this girl last night
from that bar across the block
saw her at the counter
having chivas on rocks

so approached her and said
would you mind having a chat
never thought she'd answered
do you mind rubbing my back

so i did
smooth
unimaginable
she was softened

then she touched my face
ran her finger from my forehead
nose and lips and to my chin
and gave me a kiss

her lips felt so good
soft like melting chocolate
flowing olive oil
emanating the surface

sound toned down very slowly
tranquility consumed the place
i can hear the sea breeze
and chimes outside the window

then i opened my eyes
in the most sluggish way
expecting a dream-atic scenario
in one of those steamy nights

she gave me a petting slap
and embraced me after
her perfumed was all-over
euphoric and arousing yet calming

we were hugging each other
as if we've been lovers for a long time
it wasn't bad at all
though i thought it was before

had a great time telling you my fantasy
but let me end it here for now
tell you more about it
until we meet again

absolute

why did you close your doors on me
was it of what i said
but it's a pity for such a reason
a strange throw

why have you shut all the possibilities
of a lifetime engagement
were you afraid then
that you will love me eventually

but why are you controlling your feelings
let it show
there's no harm in giving chances
life is not absolute

why not reconsider this freedom
an outburst of emotional fantasies
i plea you accept my offer
an assurance of a lifelong joy

empress

her face like porcelain
but soft and delicate
beauty so timeless
she is an empress

her lips are fine lines
kissing a gentle surprise
like a daydream
with open eyes

her body is wonderful
with piercing of golden navel ring
and winged tattoo hanging
just right above the back of her hips

always wanted to touch it
caress with my bare
tender loving palms
and cuddle

she walks of grace and elegance
and the sway of her hands
dictates her status
of royalty

wanted to hug her now
here in my imagination
hoping all these were real
wish she is beside me

can't love you less

if you only knew
how much hurting
it's causing me
not to hear
even a syllable
you deliver

you will cry

you probably wonder why
this aching heart
can still hide
under a gracious smile

this silence
is killing me gently

short-live friendship
hoped to survive
under a magic spell
you cast

sometimes

in the deep of my sleep
i can feel you
watching over me

though you'll disprove it

i can tell from the hints
of your maneuvering
around that circle

we are destined
to share this same
affection

you and me
together

i thought i can never be happy
but i am
you know that

i can never love you less

assumptions

spent most of my life
living on assumptions
quick guesses
and intelligent suppositions

every motion
reaction
facial expression
simple movement

body language
mannerism
verbal ingenuity
and eye contact

has equivalent signification
sometimes symbolic
at times a metaphor
most of the time - bold

but now i'm having troubles
with my own theory
why she's so hard to understand
damn i miss her so much

changing lanes

one pleasant morning
waking up on the right side
changed the whole idea
of indecisiveness

sometimes it has to
be prompted by impulse
and motivated by reason
to administer to one's mind

coz' great designs
could sometimes be
the simplest
of forms

and excellent ideas
always root
to the basic
of principles

even outstanding performances
are results of
courageous attempts
and perpetual preparations

and these should be
a guide to a
whole new approach
in living life

make a stand
create
enjoy
decide now

gone

that girl i told you about
that girl brought me back to life
that girl who made me smile
that same girl broke my heart

its hard to understand
why life's so hard to play
i just want to make a stand
now i felt blue and gray

if loving you a selfishness
i should have just love myself
i spent so much time to learn your trade
that time was put to waste

i asked you what's my chance
then you threw names at me
but why are you so mad
i just wanna know you see

our bond is broken now
don't know what to do
i guess i need to wait
for another day to go

di natapos

ngayon ako'y gagawa
isang bagong tula
alay ko sa bayan
at sa buong madla

magkapit-bisig
at muling isigaw
ang awit ng kahapon
ng pusong uhaw

sealed with a kiss

let me write you a poem
that's comin' from my heart
to show you how i feel
believe me it's so real

first time that i saw you
that arrow hit me through
the impact was so strong
it must be cupids bow

then i see you once more
the second time around
same lovin' that i feel
didn't even vanish with the clouds

now let me fold this one
and wrap it all around
wishin' you all the best
and seal it with a kiss

take your time

there's so much time i still have
why do i keep pushing it up
the search is over for me
lay back live life relax

one day we'll meet somewhere
and we'll have that sudden stare
love at first sight first time
that will be her this time

that day i shout again
at the top of lungs
the three sweetest words
i love you

witchcraft

behind the pretty face is a witch
that makes really good love potions
i'm bewitch, bewildered
and bedazzled

do you long for me too

now that you know
about what i feel for you
this time i wanna ask
how long this love will last

we've had great stories told
we have laughed it out loud
three months is not that bad
the greatest conversations i've had

especially when i see your eyes
china girl smilin'
so unforgettable
even in my sleep

where i dream of you each night
a dream sequel like a love story
last night i dream again
and asked you these questions

do you give me a chance
do you love me too
do you feel the same
does your heart long for my name

i am already in love with you

i can no longer pretend
that i don't see you
when i pass by you
when we bid good byes

when we have lunch together
when you're standing there
across the room
a picture of a perfect lady

ideal girl a man could ever have
with tantalizing eyes and pretty face
and sweet sounding laughter
bursting like confetti in the air

i'm already in love with you
'though you said i haven't known you yet
but knowing part of you is good enough
i live the rest of my life knowing the other half

until then

today
i quit looking for my mona lisa
i thought
she's just a portrait of beauty

if she's for you
she will be yours
if she's not
she's someone else's

just hope that someone else
will take good care of her
and make her his princess
and love her true

and give her all she wants
all she needs
give her space too
and let her decide her own

like a grown woman
like a lady
make her smile
make her everyday special

make her feel wonderful
about herself
her mornings and afternoons
her breakfast and lunch

and take her out to moonlit dinners
and candle lights at times
and kiss her goodnight after
i just wish i could do those to her

she might be mine someday
we might be together soon
who knows what tomorrow brings
til then i wait

you are

you are beautiful
witty and wild
you are wonderful
that's true

you are the girl
of my dreams
now a dream
come true

a gentle angel
of purest heart
oh my baby
that's you

'coz you are
perfect to me
and you
will always be

no matter
what they say
it will be forever
you and me

confession

i may have all the time in the world
but you might not
so let me grab this chance
to show you my love

in this short a time that we've been friends
i can no longer hide what's growing inside
my chest is like exploding
every time you are near

it has become a burden
as excitement sink in
just like a bomb
-detonated

so let me pause for a while
to internalize...
baby i love you
one more time

a theory of a broken heart

there is no such thing as a broken heart
the word and its description is just a state of mind
because when it is real
we'll be dead by then

but then again there's half truth in it
'coz it feels like dying too
the continuous pain is excruciating
prolonged by a weakened mind

supported by alibis and denials
affirmed by loneliness
further pain by martyrdom
death by suicide

but when truly realized
a happy face emerged
stupidity accepted
life goes on

new day

there's no equal task as easy as loving you
it's like singin' my abc and happy birthday
it's like one plus one equals the two of us
it's like every rainbow after the rain

i've never been so much happy in recent days
but yesterday i started to smile
just like that
that easy

you put sparkle into my face again
revived the breathless-ness
i'm full of joy you see
and yeah its damn great

for now i found my reason
to wake up every morning
and live each day
like there's no other

five tears i shed

dear heart
this is the last time i'm gonna hurt you
for tomorrow i will change completely
so let me shed five more tears for the last time

one
for a turtle pace career
i'm like walking on a string
i have to be slow but sure

two
for being a frustrated artist
i know i make good works
but not extraordinary

three
for vanity
why does it share the biggest part
in your category

four
for pessimism
i hate it so much when
life is half empty

and last
for a broken heart
i keep on mending for so long
but keeps on breaking apart

me and my life so far

despite the fact that life is so cool
sadness has been an unwanted visitor
since my last gasp of air
and the end of semi-eternal happiness

but despite this event
i tend to cope with
the hardest obstacles
life has to offer

i always carry an extra smile
inside my pocket
in case an accidental joy
will cross my way

plan b is my secret weapon
its reduces my frustration
of a failed attempt and makes me
work harder for a goal

and when i am in my laziest
it simply means that i'm thinking
of quicker substitutes to an
accustomed labor

love is the most i could offer
to any person that i befriend
it increases rapidly
the closer we get

a reason why i'm prone to over love
which is no good to any lady
but i'm learning my lessons
quite so much lately

and when i get so bored
i just write it down
that certain length of boredom
and pictures of a frown

for in the future i might read it
laugh my heart out
but never regret it
because its been wonderful

i live life as if tomorrows my last
i am happy with what i have
i too believe in miracles
they really happen sometimes

my dreams of you

i sleep then suddenly
i wake up
in another time and space
a different dimension

where objects float
and flower shines
streaks on diamonds
and foggy backgrounds

but none is real
none is true
they just happen
out of the blue

i can create one
but hard to control
i sometimes see it
sometimes blurred

but if i'm keen
i will recall
i will remember
what happened before

dreams i keep inside my heart
this one's my best so far
it will remain a dream
until you wake me up

i dream of you each night
oh beautiful nina
i wanna be naked in paradiso
with that girl from ipanema

romancin' heaven

the first time i laid my eyes on you
i felt ecstatic that my first word went rumbling
as if my heart wanted to jump out of my mouth
and kiss your heart that's waiting there

my knees were locked like those of sleeping giraffes
that i cant make one step closer to you
my hand stiff and stuck to one place
as I attempt to reach for your hand

there was silence for the longest time
neither of us wanted to throw a word
but eyes were still to one place
staring each other across the small space

imagination summoning spells
telling me to move just one step
a simple action so valuable
for it may be now or never

searching for true love

I am in search of a true love
a love that never leaves
love that sacrifices
love that separates

right from wrong
adores the right
corrects the wrong
and extends

I am in search of a true love
a love that's pure
love no boundaries
love timeless

I am in search
I know you are there
somewhere
somehow

ode to friendship

you are special to me
you are always there
you never failed to be a friend
whenever trouble scares

a friend you can depend
a friend you can rely
a friend you can tell stories to
'til the wee hours of the night

i guess i'll miss you
when you leave today
i will think of happy thoughts
and won't feel sad

keep the memories
'til you come back
wish you all the best
all the luck

may you find new friends there
who will cheer you up
and share wonderful moments
like what we had

enough with the goodbyes and so longs
what a mouthful nonsense
its party time yeah
bring out the food and grab some beer!

love liberated

i couldn't write a thousand words but one
LOVE,
so powerful that it could surmount
any other words

like hate and misery
loneliness
grievance and pain
imprisonment from the past

love is the only freedom
i have now
love liberates me
love is my life

and to all the girls
whom i gave my love
thank you
for loving me back

hello nina

i have never seen
in my life
a lady
as lovely as you

i have never meet someone
with the purest smile
so gentle
like you do

if only dreams
could come true
i would wish it
to be with you

hello nina
would you care for a
little chat
over coffee or tea

six years and five months

why is it so hard
to forget the days
it's been six years
and five months

six years being together
five months apart
but the memories are still
as bright as white

what idiot wouldn't miss
those moments that we had
i may be the strongest
but i feel weak sometimes

i don't want to cry anymore
never weep again
the story of our lives
have reached the end

will there be another part
a sequel perhaps
or maybe
this is it

am i hoping
will there be a chance
well i am just another actor
i'm done

oh my dearest

why do i admire thee
thy face i long to see
i'm mystified
can't wait no longer

my imagination lingers
into the deep forest
of forbidden love
i'm impatient

but i can wait
'til that day shall come
when i see thy eyes
i shall not blink

i shall not utter a word
nor fade my stillness
for every moment there is
i cherish

grueling excruciation

You close your doors on me
and lost me in a forest
of thorns and roses
in one blink of an eye

I was naked
walking in the narrowest path
a gateway connecting
to what i presumed heaven

every motion i make
to these jungle of thorns
cuts my skin open
I'm bathing on blood

every loneliness I feel
like a stab on my back
a stone on my head
every time I think back

In this journey I'm taking
I've been praying to heaven
Oh my God hear me
save me

I cried
I kneel
begging
come back

in her eyes

do you know that feeling
when you just keep on talking
and she would just listen to you
with all ears

i felt that
and it was so good
with the way she respond
her contagious smile

she swept me away
i felt like i was floating
blown continuously
like a feather

sometimes
i just sit on that corner
wondering of what could happen
when we're together

of course i was dreaming
and it was impossible
and it is
maybe

but the last time we spoke
i was silenced,
dumbfounded and mesmerized
with her beauty

i was staring, gazing
looking through her china eye's
and there i saw
my hint of love

why does it hurt loving a stranger

when your heart failed
from a past love
your destiny will shiver
redrawn

a new path you will take
open ended
you gather new stones
and better ones

along the way
you will meet strangers
happy faces
you will remember

as you walk along
feel your heartbeat
pumping potions
to your emotions

you will give your love
without knowing why
a natural reaction
of an unconstrained devotion

lucky sometimes
when loved in return
but when abandoned
pain persist

stupid feeling

I feel so stupid today
I have this funny feeling
and i don't understand
why i'm missing you

maybe the weather
has been bad
maybe it was just
of what I ate

maybe a pancake
and a milk-fish
is not so good
in one plate

maybe work took most
of my time and space
maybe things
have changed

maybe you have changed
maybe you've been busy
maybe you don't like me
maybe you don't care

or maybe not
sometimes it just happens
it's inevitable and it's no wonder
absence makes the heart grow fonder

my agony

when life was complicated
and tides were high
you ease the pain
that i feel inside

you comfort me like baby
and pamper me like a child
i forgot all my problems
with just a smile

I never thought I met you
in this crowded place
where strangers come
and often go

my time has come
and things must end
after all the happiness
comes my sorrow

but i don't worry
and i don't care
it has been planned
plotted and done

'coz life is simpler now
It's no longer complicated
I no longer think too much
I no longer think about you

addicted to you

looking through your eyes
I see your window of beauty
closing on me
tears falling

the smile in your face
turns into frown
as the sunshine
dims into the dark

the clouds are rumbling
forming huge nimbus
angrily roaring
ready to burst

into a raging rainfall
hitting hard
on my wild flowers
that has just bloomed

sunny days are over
my sunshine's gone
flown by the wind
into the horizon

day is shorter
and night's long
even longer
without you beside me

but I open my eyes
I see you
i close them
it's still you i see

even glimpse has no escape
you're like lost soul
nightmare haunting me
every time I fall

love & regrets

I regret we ended
our love
young, innocent
and gullible

never thought we'll suffer
after time have passed
after all the sacrifices
after all the pain

the reason that we thought
will keep us together
now keeps us
far apart

we have nobody to blame
but accept the fact
that we were uncertain
and unsure

if we could still
hold one's arms
touch one's face
and love again

we should not have done it
if i can only relive the past
when you were juliet
and i was your romeo

yesterday was the longest

it's like it's been a month
but it was just yesterday

the last time i saw
your sweetest smile

quivering in sorrow
cold and bleak

life is a drag again
and it hurts already

i hate this feeling
but i can not control it

yes i miss you
and yesterday was the longest

final moment

yours is the face that could launch a thousand ships
and arouse the war of the galaxies
millions will attempt
one will survive

it will be apocalypse and aurora
battling for their pride
tears and bloodsheds
casting on the crossroads

angels fall from heaven
one by one
they drop on their knees
insensible and wasted

it will be a long crusade
never will i give up
until my last gasp of air
I will win your heart

happiness in you

i stare into your eyes
i see my world covered
with flowers that blossom
the color red

i hold your hand
and feel your touch
affectionate
and caring

and your face
like satin in the sunset
the angels rejoice
when you smile

i sleep tonight
and dream of you again
and hold your arms
and really tight

for tomorrow
I cherish once more
this never ending
happiness

she's here now

I packed my things quickly
can't wait for the last train
I can't stay, I'll miss her
I have to run

I'm glad that we're together now
holding each others hand
cruising the busy highway
along sunset boulevard

suddenly i feel the rush inside me
as her eyes meet mine
can't keep out that stare
I feel love again

lonely no more because she's here now
I kiss her and hug her
and hold her, even just
In my dreams

the enchantment of helen

You always brighten up my day, from the time i wake up until I fall asleep.
what magic you possess that makes my heart pound faster than the
trains running across the desert of love?

Your wit is undeniable, casting spell upon me, and in my dreams
I wander with the clouds waiting to be
romantic dewdrops in my forehead, I am enchanted.

Oh my goddess, who are you really? why such mysterious beauty
draws many questions in my mind? are you my Aphrodite?
or my Helen?

I march to war for you with my thousands of braves,
I conquer my fears until the last of my breath.
and roar like a lion in my victory.

My dear precious, the night has fallen, and so has Troy.
and as the dawning skies shines bright tomorrow,
We will love again.

that strange place inside my heart

Days I've been crying of pain in my heart
and sorrow so unbearable,
leaving me lifeless in a strange place
I've never been

not moving for quite a time
my soul lingers into the dark room
blind and furious
of what to come

at the end of the alley
I found a door
with heavenly light
flashing before my eyes

arrows of love
striking me rapidly
i lost count of the many pieces
piercing my body

and there I raise
awake from the nightmares
no more haunting
my very nights

peaceful now
my mind speaks tongues
of praise
and divinity

because I found that girl
with the cutest face and the sweetest smile
in that strange place
but in the right time

who will be there
for me
and care
forever

Monday, April 2, 2007

love hopefully

there are words better left unsaid
words that should never-ever cross our tongues
those that cause the most pain
and leaves a daunting mark

but for a cause and a greater sacrifice
one has no command over words
that rattles the balance
of an impending romance

my apologies for the hurting
i never meant it more than an abeyance
a firm decision i have to make
for once in my life

for my love is always clear
i am longing
not for a lost
but for the time spent apart

amidst the chaos and confusions
i always believe, that someday
the tides will turn on our side
and we will have each other, to love again

Sunday, March 25, 2007

diin ka na ayhan subong

pila na katuig wala ka makita
pila na ka adlaw ako na gapangita
nagapangasubo kag nagahinulsul
wala ko mahimo, indi mo ko mabasul

gihatag ko lang sa imo
ang imo gina pangayo
abi nakon sakto adto
sala gali, sala gid to

sang paglakat mo
nagatulo akon luha
ginapahiran ko lang
gi pilit madula

sobra gid kasakit
ang imo bayaan
diin ka na subong
diin ka na ayhan

diin na kutob
ang imo paglakaton
tani ginapaminsar
mo man ko gihapon

Thursday, March 22, 2007

deafening muteness

what is the meaning of this long silence
astounded and unmoving
like a statue in a long winter
across the polars of this world

the ice age is long gone
but the marks and traces
of its frozen legacy
is never melting

the longest silence on record
is like a death of a mime
on a midnight's dark blue skies
and deafening muteness

i wonder how long would this last
my lifetime is inadequate era of waiting
what is the meaning of this long silence
and why do we endure its existence

destined

to love is not a promise
but a fate of secrecy
a destiny unknown
but a voyage celebrated

greatness there is in love
and an overwhelming rejoice
of immense pleasure
with ambivalent beginnings

to love is not of pain
but of surprises
gratefulness in tomorrow
and believing in your past

in love
blindness is closing one's eyes
and seeing the truth
with trust in your heart

to love is submission
of entirety
without holding back
not one a doubt

for the true meaning of love
is of two souls
made one
written in the books of heavens

Friday, March 16, 2007

stuck into love

i doubt my intuition
for it shouldn't be
i'm not feeling this
not this way

i told myself before
just a few days back
not to fall again
into that freakin' trap

but good things come
when you least expect it
that even barren efforts
reaps a thousand golds

how could i refuse that
how could i not accept
i'm stuck into love
and i just won't escape

Saturday, March 10, 2007

a perfect idea

we may not enjoy the silly idea
of letting go a friend
but to some
it's the best there is

theories haven't proven
that emotional imbalance
could greatly affect
a silent goodbye

but a depressed soul
has no care to all
the many promises
that tomorrow can bring

and even hopes are a mistake
that leads us to seclusion
it is only when you are lost
that then you will be found

Thursday, March 8, 2007

'sang mahabang ikot

hali ka't yakapin mo ako
hayaan mong dampian
ng duming hubad
ang aking katawan

higpitan mo ang iyong hawak
na tila di na makahinga
ang aking pusong lugmok
sa piga ng tadhana

upang ako'y matauhan
na sa isang saglit
mawawala lahat
ang aking alinlangan

ganun pala...
lahat ay umiikot
bumabalik sa simula
'pag and dulo'y naabot

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

lonesome lullaby

spent yesterday humming
the whole of it was wasted
by just humming
with some lonesome lullaby

it was a full concerto
drumbeats from my heart
and splashes of tears
the tempo was crazily joyous

and i was enjoying it
every moment of it
silly isn't it
enjoying a loneliness

now i'm doubting myself
for not being true
i dwell on sadness
sacrificing for you

blank wall

life is half empty but full of questions
unanswered
i ask my wandering soul
why the ambiguity

the complex idea
and the luxury of gladness
is just as blunt
and vague combined

like that girl next door
sensible yet senseless
with face of grace and lips so luscious
while nuts fills her nutshell

sometimes
its better to just run
extremely fast
to that blank wall

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

crayons and magic

you color my life
with crayons and magic
and purple shower
of orange glitz

roses of reds
lay u down in my bed
kisses with pinks
with lips of violets

the pleasures of love
is melting through the thin layers
of my yellow skin
and washes away my blued soul

and a drop of a crystal clear
tear coming from the narrow aperture
of my tiny eyes
a magical rainbow emerges

exhausted

days pass me by
swiftly sailing like a boat
on the river of tears
that we have cried

thought of it many times
mixed it up
arranged it twice
making it look real nice

but one broken link
i've been fixing so long
every time i make a move
something goes wrong

when the heart bleeds fast
and the hurting comes again
saying goodbye
won't make me half a man

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

witchess

your eyes are a view
of enticement
beauty that beholds
the mystery

oh is it magic
and bewitchment
princess of witches
goddess of secrets

by your bewildering grace
i am drawn blank
intrigue in quietude
my soul rouses

cast me a spell
let me languish in your embrace
of warm, passionate love
and enchanting, romantic kiss

a blissful fall

hold your hands, may i
i walk you to a lullaby
beyond the breezy afternoon
on this paradise isle

white sands and clear skies
shores we walk on by
soothing sound of cool waves
perfect last kiss i saved

and you stare at me
through my despairing eyes
and you never blinked
not one a time

what should i do
i'm falling for you
oh what mistake it is
when i'm in bliss

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

halik ng apoy

gusto kong halikan ang iyong mga labi
upang madama mo ang init
ng apoy na lumalagablab
sa kaibuturan ng aking marupok na puso

hagkan ang iyong mga kamay
at yakapin ka ngayon malamig ang gabi
at ang mga tala'y kumikinang
na parang brilyantes sa kalawakan

mahirap bang intindihin
ang pusong nagmamahal
hindi mo ba kayang tanggapin
na tayo'y iisa

hanggang kailan ako malulumbay
kung kailan hindi ko na kayang umibig
ayoko ko na muling magkamali
sana ang bukas ay hindi pa huli

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

love wins over love

the first burst was soft and gentle
it was shallow yet cunning
a taste of doomsday
it hit, it did

the second coming was even greater
and was able to hit direct
bulleyes...
bleeds like a perfect cut

the third strike ended it all
it was the sweetest revenge ever
like a fallen boxer
hit right through the eyes

mending and was out of breath
exhaling was the only gesture
a sweet victory
indeed

Monday, February 12, 2007

the other destiny

you liberated yourself
then...
by letting him go
from your embrace

he will marry
you will still be friends
you will accept it
the fact that you cant just be together

move on with your life
realized that you've wasted
so much time on this grief
and enslavement

you will feel a little sadness
a little denial
but it will be all good
and you will be happy

now if...
this is not gonna happen
destiny...
is being rewritten

not yet

cruelty has bowed down to the master
defeated by happiness
pulverized
into really small pieces

not even a trace to find
glitches gone
no blemishes
of sad remarks

terribly unbelievable
i'm still havin' hangovers
from what i am used to
looking down

while soaring high
should i enjoy this bliss
let me fall
not yet - not this time

Sunday, February 11, 2007

thank you my angel

all-time low this week
never imagined it coming
so many problems to solve
not done with even one

checking reality every minute
calling on him every time
asking for assistance
with this life of mine

prolonged agony i experienced
of my bad indecisive mind
keep holding on to it
'til i lost all the bits

shining wings of angels
came to see me down
crying joyous
heaven heard my howl

of the many troubles keeping me up
one made me fall asleep
days and days i was
lying on my bed

but you my angel tell me stories
bedtime and wonderful
how could i ever thank you
a million is not enough

i found a friend in your presence
like a guiding star in the night
sooner than i could imagine
i'm good and all well

thank you my angel
thank you for praying with me
thank you for staying around
thank you, thank you...

Friday, February 9, 2007

sudden sadness

sudden sadness is striking
here right in the middle of my heart
i feel terribly cold already
and its rising so fast to my head

inside me is trembling
can't even hold a pen
saline in my window
prepared in droplets

knees can barely hold it
fainting almost
my shoulders are getting heavy
adding to the burden

my brain is freezing
trying to recall happiness
but sorrow's beating on it
damned

crippled
i want to wake up to reality
crying for help
i need to escape this

quickly after
the millisecond grief
has succumb
to oblivion

-dedicated to my papa(1950-2007). may you find peace from the comforts of the heavens.

in the name of love

feelin' the air against my face
sensual surge
from the softness
and silken surface

hopes are aces
defiance to fear
holding on to good ol' memories
of flashing reflection

unselfish devotion
to a heart's flame
aromatic eternity
breezing the comforts

unended repartee
excerpt from the scripts
written
in the name of love

Thursday, February 8, 2007

on the bright side

i'm pretending to be happy
to heal a little
but we still love each other
and i would change my mind totally for her

this is even harder than you know
at the back of my head
this is not yet over
everything will fall into the right place

like all the rain goes to the sea
sometimes lake for little troubles
and settle down as the sun shines again
and the rainbow, so beautiful

on the brighter side
i get to enjoy some temporal happiness
i am this mad
and crazy about her

on black and white

that's what making me sad
i have these reasons,
yet i still find time to dwell on petty things
like my lost love

im trying to cover up
for what happened to us
and deal with this loneliness
that's i'm not suppose to

but i'm devising something now
something that would help
ease some pain
i might encounter in the future

and i am writing it
'coz i might not be able
to feel it this way
sooner than i could imagine

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

fixing a broken heart again

i have my tools with me
ready...
i got a 3m packaging tape
a stapler

one container glue
some stick ons
wipes...
a healing cream

i'm ready now
step one...
slowly put the pieces back together
then, starting from one side

roll the tape to hold it to place
apply some glue
wipe it dry
then there goes the healing cream

staple the rest
put on the stick ons
write this down
fixed...

indecisive yet decided

should i go or...
i'm always caught in between
when trying to decide on something
guess i'm so indecisive

that even my last relationship
went into dancing
with some rock en roll music
or was it slow dance?

even that i don't know
i always have two choices
sometimes when i get lucky
it goes this or this...

that's when impulse came in
quick decisions
i did a big one...
and i don't regret it

crispy-licious

red and juicy...
one bite is all you need
crispy-licious
and mouth watering

are you ready to grab it
beware i'm telling you
it's not what you think it is
and you can't just throw it away

it's taste meant so much more
not just it's sweet and all delicious
be ready for what it brings
tempting?

it's sure is,
what women want
hard to bare
but you have to

second love

i've been thinking...
i can settle for that second love
it hurts a little...
but it's still love after all

she hugs me back when i do
she still kisses me too
she still smiles a lot
she still sleeps on my lap

i guess i really love her
more and more each time
we've been away sometime now
i long for her somehow

if given a chance to be together
i'd grab it with both hands
no matter what it takes
i will still be who i am

i am your man
i love you for who you are
and i can always ignore the fact
that i am just the second love

day by day

no matter how much you close your eyes
you'll never forget that love you shared with her
it keeps on coming back - the memories
even long after she's gone

you always thought you'll forget about it
even working on your busiest
you got to stop a while
and ponder upon what went wrong

guess you'll never perfect love
unless you experienced it first hand
but when will it stop the cycle
amazing ain't it

i faced it with all i had
i even went free fall
trusting that thrust
still i hit the floor

love songs

some love songs tell stories
that have been made in heaven
some tell stories of a life changing event
some just tell it...

simple love affairs that took place
somewhere down the road
or in a butterfly garden
somewhere...

two people confess their love
under the bright stars
covering the midnight blue
in a pale moonlight

i've been writing mine for some time now
but just couldn't put the words together
maybe you could fill some lines for me
will you?

friends? friends...

today i surrender my call
i raised the white flag
it's no longer worth the fight
i settled the dispute

accepted the fact
that life have these troubles
and one way or the other
i will encounter them

lets face it
being strong doesn't mean
not holding your stand
or giving in

there will be many more
and more to come
it just so happen
at times we lose some

but nevertheless
i found my true self
known better
and gained a friend

imagination...

imagination is more
important than knowledge,
for knowledge is limited
while imagination embraces
the entire world.

Albert Einstein
scientist (1867-1934)

Monday, February 5, 2007

a new found glory

mesmerized...
my ceaseless desire of you
is creeping through my veins
reaching the confines of my emotions

you fuel my imaginations
with your poise and savoir-faire
exquisite...
i am consumed by you, siren

each day i long to be with you
and be with you for the rest
of my days
and love you in many ways

a new found glory it is
am back on my feet
walking...
with a big smile

fabricated truth

derived from the word that made all men wept
tears from the shadows of the old promise
unbreakable and so it seems
this truth has noone claims

accurate and hits you hard
deeply penetrating your sacred heart
vulgar and innocent, there's nothing new
this truth will lucidly kill you

a friend at times, but mostly not
never deal with it, it hurts a lot
defend yourself, when it strikes back
this truth is just so hard to mock

but some men have escaped the wrath
of this century old fact
they say, just be what you wanna be
and this truth shall set you free

random hearts

pick one and show me
what is it you're having
pink, red, white or yellow
turn me tangerine and blue

was it of the past you had
that made you strong and mad
why don't try to make a stand
find yourself a real lad

i know it hurts to be reminded
of the many memories you had
but ain't it enough trouble
leaving someone sad

go on, continue your journey
and your hopes along the way
be honest still and be smart
and don't just break some random hearts

flying high

momentum has it, found this new love
crazy, sexy, cool, explains it out all
trying hard to hide it
but bursting and delighted

i giggle like a baby
upon hearing up your name
like a little charlie
holding up my scream

i miss the old one
but i got something new
trying to enjoy it
dying to be true

and here i am right now
with kisses and my hugs
flying high above
into the cloud 9 of love

blink of an eye

what the hell happened
damn it was so fast
the next time i know
i'm already out of gas

riding through this busy highway
cruisin' as i always do
holding you beside me
damn i miss you so

warmth by your hands
blown to cold freeze
dying love
bleeding heart

slowly we were exhausted
slowly we were sad
in a blink of an eye
all the colors fade to black

how close can you get

you're always there
for this song to share
we sing the hymn
with melodic flair

of love and friendship
that's so true
that's all i want
just to be with you

how sweet it is
to be loved like this
purist romance
and all willingness

seems like a dream
couldn't ask for more
but dream it is
will never be real

bestfriends for life
is all there is
how close can you get
more than this?

i miss my princess

i was lifeless lying along shore
in the middle seas of blue waters
under a flare of the red hot sun
striking my blinded vision

so bright to see a thing
closed my eyes to heal
the pain is too strong
numbness i'm waiting

i can't shout
no words will come out my mouth
my tongue is sore
and throat bleeding

from that medieval blade
slicing through it
i'm short of breath this time
i'm dying

from my stillness
i saw u there
taking away the grief
from a lost sacrifice

you held me unto your shoulders
and walk me along
miracles happen
my miracle is you

you take me away
to a far place
you breathe me life
and gave me hope

but you are not here
i long for your loving embrace
i long for that eternal kiss
i miss you my princess

a passionate surrender

bleeding in cold blood from the wounds of yesterday
dying in thirst and loneliness, comfortless
Godforsaken beauty of a perfect sacrifice
drowned in the river of love

kiss me goodnight oh my princess
and poison me with your charm
lay me down to rest in your arms
not a tear should keep me warm

for the night has deep into the silence
weeping like a widow in the dark
and harmony arranged the melody
of bells with muted sound

i close my eyes and whisper into the clouds
my last will and testament
to love you without hesitations, pure and proud
genuine and true, undying and devoted

losing a sight to grace, gently and slowly falling
lifeless it has become while saving the last breath
suddenly all was into a halt, descending one by one
covered with white cloth with songs of undying hymn

graciously i lifted my arms to feel it
such a warm embrace wraps me in aeon
but the inside is getting colder chills
seconds later, came my passionate surrender