my country my love my promise

my song for you will always be
as happy as the birds are free
you are my hope my everything
and air i gasp a life you bring

alone you stand amidst expiry
of a worldly ill favor against you
strong and immortal
of willful power

you stood still
tall and beautiful
tainted as they brand
but pure as white

in time i will exhale
the answer of liberation
like little jose once imagined
of a nation free

a magical act

my beautiful you
who once sprung from my avid imagination
now lost in translation
of a mimicking escape art

was it gone
or stuck in still and frozen in time
and when the act is done
all else returned and well

amusing how these surviving explicit
of an explication
has deceived the eyes
and convinced the mind

does love has to do with
or the act itself is love
left blank to pondering
it was beautiful

textmates

sometimes i feel like
stuck
'coz i got no one
to talk to

sometimes i feel
so busy
'coz i got nobody
to share with

sometimes i feel
so lonely
'coz there's nobody
to back me up

good thing there's my mobile
and you
on the other side
of the line

a sweet surprise

i never thought
i could ever write
of happiness
and sweet surprise

until you came
into my life
and put lil' spark
unto my eyes

you wiped away
those frozen tears
that have been there
for all these years

i cant believe
i'm liking you
its a miracle
that's coming true

'coz i never thought
i could ever love
more than that love
that i once have

and yeah its cool
to have found you
baby, this i promise
i wont let go

passing

over my window
i saw the after life
it was a bit cloudy at first
but it soon cleared out

bluish pale tone
covering the celestial sphere
and the bright sun
casting shadows on me

after that tangerine teardrops
falling wild
over the greeneries
and strawberry fields

i soon realized
that passing
could be merry
and quite worthwhile

namiss kita bigla

sa bawat pagpikit ng aking mga mata
sanlibong lumbay ang nadarama
agos ng sapa ang tulo ng luha
paglinsan mo'y di ko nakaya

parang kahapon lamang
kamay mo'y aking hawak
haplos nito'y sariwa pa
sa aking mga palad

ang puso ko'y nananabik
sa higpit ng mga yapak
ng dati nating pagibig
na wari'y walang kupas

wala akong nagawa
di ka napigil
maghihintay na lamang
ganun na nga, marahil

keep loving

why do i keep loving
while i know it hurts so bad
maybe i'm used to it now
learned some lessons from the past

when you fall
stand right up
give her a kiss
and a big hug

show her love
you never showed
hold her arms
not too tight

let her fly
if she desires
letting go
is quite worthwhile

'coz if you love someone
set her free
when she comes back
now you can say - she is for me

thin line

i'm still curious about that thin line we cross
when we fall in love
it's like an infinite plane of laser lights
that strip away all the limitations you have

and you become ready to submit into
a whirlwind of a never ending romance
eventually, you become blind, deaf,
stubborn and hard headed

i have many questions
unanswered
for no one
will answer them for me

or point me
to a direction
until my curiosity consumed me
one day a very long time ago

fantasies are never untrue

met this girl last night
from that bar across the block
saw her at the counter
having chivas on rocks

so approached her and said
would you mind having a chat
never thought she'd answered
do you mind rubbing my back

so i did
smooth
unimaginable
she was softened

then she touched my face
ran her finger from my forehead
nose and lips and to my chin
and gave me a kiss

her lips felt so good
soft like melting chocolate
flowing olive oil
emanating the surface

sound toned down very slowly
tranquility consumed the place
i can hear the sea breeze
and chimes outside the window

then i opened my eyes
in the most sluggish way
expecting a dream-atic scenario
in one of those steamy nights

she gave me a petting slap
and embraced me after
her perfumed was all-over
euphoric and arousing yet calming

we were hugging each other
as if we've been lovers for a long time
it wasn't bad at all
though i thought it was before

had a great time telling you my fantasy
but let me end it here for now
tell you more about it
until we meet again

absolute

why did you close your doors on me
was it of what i said
but it's a pity for such a reason
a strange throw

why have you shut all the possibilities
of a lifetime engagement
were you afraid then
that you will love me eventually

but why are you controlling your feelings
let it show
there's no harm in giving chances
life is not absolute

why not reconsider this freedom
an outburst of emotional fantasies
i plea you accept my offer
an assurance of a lifelong joy

empress

her face like porcelain
but soft and delicate
beauty so timeless
she is an empress

her lips are fine lines
kissing a gentle surprise
like a daydream
with open eyes

her body is wonderful
with piercing of golden navel ring
and winged tattoo hanging
just right above the back of her hips

always wanted to touch it
caress with my bare
tender loving palms
and cuddle

she walks of grace and elegance
and the sway of her hands
dictates her status
of royalty

wanted to hug her now
here in my imagination
hoping all these were real
wish she is beside me

can't love you less

if you only knew
how much hurting
it's causing me
not to hear
even a syllable
you deliver

you will cry

you probably wonder why
this aching heart
can still hide
under a gracious smile

this silence
is killing me gently

short-live friendship
hoped to survive
under a magic spell
you cast

sometimes

in the deep of my sleep
i can feel you
watching over me

though you'll disprove it

i can tell from the hints
of your maneuvering
around that circle

we are destined
to share this same
affection

you and me
together

i thought i can never be happy
but i am
you know that

i can never love you less

assumptions

spent most of my life
living on assumptions
quick guesses
and intelligent suppositions

every motion
reaction
facial expression
simple movement

body language
mannerism
verbal ingenuity
and eye contact

has equivalent signification
sometimes symbolic
at times a metaphor
most of the time - bold

but now i'm having troubles
with my own theory
why she's so hard to understand
damn i miss her so much

changing lanes

one pleasant morning
waking up on the right side
changed the whole idea
of indecisiveness

sometimes it has to
be prompted by impulse
and motivated by reason
to administer to one's mind

coz' great designs
could sometimes be
the simplest
of forms

and excellent ideas
always root
to the basic
of principles

even outstanding performances
are results of
courageous attempts
and perpetual preparations

and these should be
a guide to a
whole new approach
in living life

make a stand
create
enjoy
decide now

gone

that girl i told you about
that girl brought me back to life
that girl who made me smile
that same girl broke my heart

its hard to understand
why life's so hard to play
i just want to make a stand
now i felt blue and gray

if loving you a selfishness
i should have just love myself
i spent so much time to learn your trade
that time was put to waste

i asked you what's my chance
then you threw names at me
but why are you so mad
i just wanna know you see

our bond is broken now
don't know what to do
i guess i need to wait
for another day to go

di natapos

ngayon ako'y gagawa
isang bagong tula
alay ko sa bayan
at sa buong madla

magkapit-bisig
at muling isigaw
ang awit ng kahapon
ng pusong uhaw

sealed with a kiss

let me write you a poem
that's comin' from my heart
to show you how i feel
believe me it's so real

first time that i saw you
that arrow hit me through
the impact was so strong
it must be cupids bow

then i see you once more
the second time around
same lovin' that i feel
didn't even vanish with the clouds

now let me fold this one
and wrap it all around
wishin' you all the best
and seal it with a kiss

take your time

there's so much time i still have
why do i keep pushing it up
the search is over for me
lay back live life relax

one day we'll meet somewhere
and we'll have that sudden stare
love at first sight first time
that will be her this time

that day i shout again
at the top of lungs
the three sweetest words
i love you

witchcraft

behind the pretty face is a witch
that makes really good love potions
i'm bewitch, bewildered
and bedazzled

do you long for me too

now that you know
about what i feel for you
this time i wanna ask
how long this love will last

we've had great stories told
we have laughed it out loud
three months is not that bad
the greatest conversations i've had

especially when i see your eyes
china girl smilin'
so unforgettable
even in my sleep

where i dream of you each night
a dream sequel like a love story
last night i dream again
and asked you these questions

do you give me a chance
do you love me too
do you feel the same
does your heart long for my name

i am already in love with you

i can no longer pretend
that i don't see you
when i pass by you
when we bid good byes

when we have lunch together
when you're standing there
across the room
a picture of a perfect lady

ideal girl a man could ever have
with tantalizing eyes and pretty face
and sweet sounding laughter
bursting like confetti in the air

i'm already in love with you
'though you said i haven't known you yet
but knowing part of you is good enough
i live the rest of my life knowing the other half

until then

today
i quit looking for my mona lisa
i thought
she's just a portrait of beauty

if she's for you
she will be yours
if she's not
she's someone else's

just hope that someone else
will take good care of her
and make her his princess
and love her true

and give her all she wants
all she needs
give her space too
and let her decide her own

like a grown woman
like a lady
make her smile
make her everyday special

make her feel wonderful
about herself
her mornings and afternoons
her breakfast and lunch

and take her out to moonlit dinners
and candle lights at times
and kiss her goodnight after
i just wish i could do those to her

she might be mine someday
we might be together soon
who knows what tomorrow brings
til then i wait

you are

you are beautiful
witty and wild
you are wonderful
that's true

you are the girl
of my dreams
now a dream
come true

a gentle angel
of purest heart
oh my baby
that's you

'coz you are
perfect to me
and you
will always be

no matter
what they say
it will be forever
you and me

confession

i may have all the time in the world
but you might not
so let me grab this chance
to show you my love

in this short a time that we've been friends
i can no longer hide what's growing inside
my chest is like exploding
every time you are near

it has become a burden
as excitement sink in
just like a bomb
-detonated

so let me pause for a while
to internalize...
baby i love you
one more time

a theory of a broken heart

there is no such thing as a broken heart
the word and its description is just a state of mind
because when it is real
we'll be dead by then

but then again there's half truth in it
'coz it feels like dying too
the continuous pain is excruciating
prolonged by a weakened mind

supported by alibis and denials
affirmed by loneliness
further pain by martyrdom
death by suicide

but when truly realized
a happy face emerged
stupidity accepted
life goes on

new day

there's no equal task as easy as loving you
it's like singin' my abc and happy birthday
it's like one plus one equals the two of us
it's like every rainbow after the rain

i've never been so much happy in recent days
but yesterday i started to smile
just like that
that easy

you put sparkle into my face again
revived the breathless-ness
i'm full of joy you see
and yeah its damn great

for now i found my reason
to wake up every morning
and live each day
like there's no other

five tears i shed

dear heart
this is the last time i'm gonna hurt you
for tomorrow i will change completely
so let me shed five more tears for the last time

one
for a turtle pace career
i'm like walking on a string
i have to be slow but sure

two
for being a frustrated artist
i know i make good works
but not extraordinary

three
for vanity
why does it share the biggest part
in your category

four
for pessimism
i hate it so much when
life is half empty

and last
for a broken heart
i keep on mending for so long
but keeps on breaking apart

me and my life so far

despite the fact that life is so cool
sadness has been an unwanted visitor
since my last gasp of air
and the end of semi-eternal happiness

but despite this event
i tend to cope with
the hardest obstacles
life has to offer

i always carry an extra smile
inside my pocket
in case an accidental joy
will cross my way

plan b is my secret weapon
its reduces my frustration
of a failed attempt and makes me
work harder for a goal

and when i am in my laziest
it simply means that i'm thinking
of quicker substitutes to an
accustomed labor

love is the most i could offer
to any person that i befriend
it increases rapidly
the closer we get

a reason why i'm prone to over love
which is no good to any lady
but i'm learning my lessons
quite so much lately

and when i get so bored
i just write it down
that certain length of boredom
and pictures of a frown

for in the future i might read it
laugh my heart out
but never regret it
because its been wonderful

i live life as if tomorrows my last
i am happy with what i have
i too believe in miracles
they really happen sometimes

my dreams of you

i sleep then suddenly
i wake up
in another time and space
a different dimension

where objects float
and flower shines
streaks on diamonds
and foggy backgrounds

but none is real
none is true
they just happen
out of the blue

i can create one
but hard to control
i sometimes see it
sometimes blurred

but if i'm keen
i will recall
i will remember
what happened before

dreams i keep inside my heart
this one's my best so far
it will remain a dream
until you wake me up

i dream of you each night
oh beautiful nina
i wanna be naked in paradiso
with that girl from ipanema

romancin' heaven

the first time i laid my eyes on you
i felt ecstatic that my first word went rumbling
as if my heart wanted to jump out of my mouth
and kiss your heart that's waiting there

my knees were locked like those of sleeping giraffes
that i cant make one step closer to you
my hand stiff and stuck to one place
as I attempt to reach for your hand

there was silence for the longest time
neither of us wanted to throw a word
but eyes were still to one place
staring each other across the small space

imagination summoning spells
telling me to move just one step
a simple action so valuable
for it may be now or never

searching for true love

I am in search of a true love
a love that never leaves
love that sacrifices
love that separates

right from wrong
adores the right
corrects the wrong
and extends

I am in search of a true love
a love that's pure
love no boundaries
love timeless

I am in search
I know you are there
somewhere
somehow

ode to friendship

you are special to me
you are always there
you never failed to be a friend
whenever trouble scares

a friend you can depend
a friend you can rely
a friend you can tell stories to
'til the wee hours of the night

i guess i'll miss you
when you leave today
i will think of happy thoughts
and won't feel sad

keep the memories
'til you come back
wish you all the best
all the luck

may you find new friends there
who will cheer you up
and share wonderful moments
like what we had

enough with the goodbyes and so longs
what a mouthful nonsense
its party time yeah
bring out the food and grab some beer!

love liberated

i couldn't write a thousand words but one
LOVE,
so powerful that it could surmount
any other words

like hate and misery
loneliness
grievance and pain
imprisonment from the past

love is the only freedom
i have now
love liberates me
love is my life

and to all the girls
whom i gave my love
thank you
for loving me back

hello nina

i have never seen
in my life
a lady
as lovely as you

i have never meet someone
with the purest smile
so gentle
like you do

if only dreams
could come true
i would wish it
to be with you

hello nina
would you care for a
little chat
over coffee or tea

six years and five months

why is it so hard
to forget the days
it's been six years
and five months

six years being together
five months apart
but the memories are still
as bright as white

what idiot wouldn't miss
those moments that we had
i may be the strongest
but i feel weak sometimes

i don't want to cry anymore
never weep again
the story of our lives
have reached the end

will there be another part
a sequel perhaps
or maybe
this is it

am i hoping
will there be a chance
well i am just another actor
i'm done

oh my dearest

why do i admire thee
thy face i long to see
i'm mystified
can't wait no longer

my imagination lingers
into the deep forest
of forbidden love
i'm impatient

but i can wait
'til that day shall come
when i see thy eyes
i shall not blink

i shall not utter a word
nor fade my stillness
for every moment there is
i cherish

grueling excruciation

You close your doors on me
and lost me in a forest
of thorns and roses
in one blink of an eye

I was naked
walking in the narrowest path
a gateway connecting
to what i presumed heaven

every motion i make
to these jungle of thorns
cuts my skin open
I'm bathing on blood

every loneliness I feel
like a stab on my back
a stone on my head
every time I think back

In this journey I'm taking
I've been praying to heaven
Oh my God hear me
save me

I cried
I kneel
begging
come back

in her eyes

do you know that feeling
when you just keep on talking
and she would just listen to you
with all ears

i felt that
and it was so good
with the way she respond
her contagious smile

she swept me away
i felt like i was floating
blown continuously
like a feather

sometimes
i just sit on that corner
wondering of what could happen
when we're together

of course i was dreaming
and it was impossible
and it is
maybe

but the last time we spoke
i was silenced,
dumbfounded and mesmerized
with her beauty

i was staring, gazing
looking through her china eye's
and there i saw
my hint of love

why does it hurt loving a stranger

when your heart failed
from a past love
your destiny will shiver
redrawn

a new path you will take
open ended
you gather new stones
and better ones

along the way
you will meet strangers
happy faces
you will remember

as you walk along
feel your heartbeat
pumping potions
to your emotions

you will give your love
without knowing why
a natural reaction
of an unconstrained devotion

lucky sometimes
when loved in return
but when abandoned
pain persist

stupid feeling

I feel so stupid today
I have this funny feeling
and i don't understand
why i'm missing you

maybe the weather
has been bad
maybe it was just
of what I ate

maybe a pancake
and a milk-fish
is not so good
in one plate

maybe work took most
of my time and space
maybe things
have changed

maybe you have changed
maybe you've been busy
maybe you don't like me
maybe you don't care

or maybe not
sometimes it just happens
it's inevitable and it's no wonder
absence makes the heart grow fonder

my agony

when life was complicated
and tides were high
you ease the pain
that i feel inside

you comfort me like baby
and pamper me like a child
i forgot all my problems
with just a smile

I never thought I met you
in this crowded place
where strangers come
and often go

my time has come
and things must end
after all the happiness
comes my sorrow

but i don't worry
and i don't care
it has been planned
plotted and done

'coz life is simpler now
It's no longer complicated
I no longer think too much
I no longer think about you

addicted to you

looking through your eyes
I see your window of beauty
closing on me
tears falling

the smile in your face
turns into frown
as the sunshine
dims into the dark

the clouds are rumbling
forming huge nimbus
angrily roaring
ready to burst

into a raging rainfall
hitting hard
on my wild flowers
that has just bloomed

sunny days are over
my sunshine's gone
flown by the wind
into the horizon

day is shorter
and night's long
even longer
without you beside me

but I open my eyes
I see you
i close them
it's still you i see

even glimpse has no escape
you're like lost soul
nightmare haunting me
every time I fall

love & regrets

I regret we ended
our love
young, innocent
and gullible

never thought we'll suffer
after time have passed
after all the sacrifices
after all the pain

the reason that we thought
will keep us together
now keeps us
far apart

we have nobody to blame
but accept the fact
that we were uncertain
and unsure

if we could still
hold one's arms
touch one's face
and love again

we should not have done it
if i can only relive the past
when you were juliet
and i was your romeo

yesterday was the longest

it's like it's been a month
but it was just yesterday

the last time i saw
your sweetest smile

quivering in sorrow
cold and bleak

life is a drag again
and it hurts already

i hate this feeling
but i can not control it

yes i miss you
and yesterday was the longest

final moment

yours is the face that could launch a thousand ships
and arouse the war of the galaxies
millions will attempt
one will survive

it will be apocalypse and aurora
battling for their pride
tears and bloodsheds
casting on the crossroads

angels fall from heaven
one by one
they drop on their knees
insensible and wasted

it will be a long crusade
never will i give up
until my last gasp of air
I will win your heart

happiness in you

i stare into your eyes
i see my world covered
with flowers that blossom
the color red

i hold your hand
and feel your touch
affectionate
and caring

and your face
like satin in the sunset
the angels rejoice
when you smile

i sleep tonight
and dream of you again
and hold your arms
and really tight

for tomorrow
I cherish once more
this never ending
happiness

she's here now

I packed my things quickly
can't wait for the last train
I can't stay, I'll miss her
I have to run

I'm glad that we're together now
holding each others hand
cruising the busy highway
along sunset boulevard

suddenly i feel the rush inside me
as her eyes meet mine
can't keep out that stare
I feel love again

lonely no more because she's here now
I kiss her and hug her
and hold her, even just
In my dreams

the enchantment of helen

You always brighten up my day, from the time i wake up until I fall asleep.
what magic you possess that makes my heart pound faster than the
trains running across the desert of love?

Your wit is undeniable, casting spell upon me, and in my dreams
I wander with the clouds waiting to be
romantic dewdrops in my forehead, I am enchanted.

Oh my goddess, who are you really? why such mysterious beauty
draws many questions in my mind? are you my Aphrodite?
or my Helen?

I march to war for you with my thousands of braves,
I conquer my fears until the last of my breath.
and roar like a lion in my victory.

My dear precious, the night has fallen, and so has Troy.
and as the dawning skies shines bright tomorrow,
We will love again.

that strange place inside my heart

Days I've been crying of pain in my heart
and sorrow so unbearable,
leaving me lifeless in a strange place
I've never been

not moving for quite a time
my soul lingers into the dark room
blind and furious
of what to come

at the end of the alley
I found a door
with heavenly light
flashing before my eyes

arrows of love
striking me rapidly
i lost count of the many pieces
piercing my body

and there I raise
awake from the nightmares
no more haunting
my very nights

peaceful now
my mind speaks tongues
of praise
and divinity

because I found that girl
with the cutest face and the sweetest smile
in that strange place
but in the right time

who will be there
for me
and care
forever

love hopefully

there are words better left unsaid
words that should never-ever cross our tongues
those that cause the most pain
and leaves a daunting mark

but for a cause and a greater sacrifice
one has no command over words
that rattles the balance
of an impending romance

my apologies for the hurting
i never meant it more than an abeyance
a firm decision i have to make
for once in my life

for my love is always clear
i am longing
not for a lost
but for the time spent apart

amidst the chaos and confusions
i always believe, that someday
the tides will turn on our side
and we will have each other, to love again